Joy Express

I have just had the realisation that sometimes one just wants someone to take one’s hand on the very difficult journey through the chaos of emotional battery.

 

A Journey through many years of … emotional upheaval … expectations of negative experiences … travelling the road less travelled … navigating the clear path.

 

Sometimes, actually, many times, we just want someone to Understand that we can’t be like they want us to be, but we are Loved all the same.  We want to be accepted for our uniqueness.  We want to be honoured and treated with dignity for our differences, rather than used as a battering ram for others to express their discomfort and distress and pain.

 

I want  … peace and happiness.

I want … understanding, and to make sense of my experiences.

I want … to be honoured for who I am.

I want … acknowledgement of the challenges life has thrown me.

 

I am angry about feeling excluded.  I am angry that others have received much more care and consideration than me.  I am angry that I suffered incredible emotional abuse during so much of the formative part of my life.  I am angry that I was expected to be accountable for my actions and yet others don’t have to be.

 

I have ~ the LOVE of Great Friends.

I have ~ the Compassion of lovely people, in ‘this’ part of my life, and from ‘that’ part of my life. 

I have ~ remarkable understanding of So Much of the metaphysical world.

I have ~ been Blessed with things and people too numerous to mention.

 

And, I am still sad.  Sad for me.  Sad for Me.  Sad for ME.

 

But, from tomorrow onwards, my Life of JOY will be back on track, if a bit slowly and a bit rocky, at times.  I have people to Love, people to Laugh with, people to Care about, people to Share the Exciting New Directions I am travelling in.

 

“With JOY“ is still the way I want to live my life … it’s still bubbling around deep down inside me. 

And that brings a Smile to my Soul.